i'm wondering when we'll be like how we used to. I'm thinking probably never. I'm hoping soon but the truth is, I don't know. and I'm scared to know. I'm trying so hard to tell him I haven't changed. I'm trying so hard to put it all behind me. but I'm so uncomfortable. and it upsets me.
i've told my mother several times: i can't get good rest if you keep interupting my sleep. i've told my mother several times: even if i do fall back asleep after you wake me up, i'll only be more tired. i've told my mother several times: i'm nearing the end of my teen years, i don't need you to tell me not to open the door to strangers or to lock the door before i head out... i've told my mother several times: stop waking me up an hour before i need to wake up. BUT SHE DOESNT LISTEN. AND THEN SHE WONDERS WHY IM TIRED. gah.
God, why not? why didn't you let me in? i thought if i worked hard enough, and i trusted in You, You'd provide? I guess i'm not ready for it yet. Change me.
my parents... are the most annoying thing to wake up to. if you ever get a chance to be woken up by them, well... it's your unlucky day. They're great people.. they really are. but when it comes to waking people up, they are horrible at it! here's why: my mother: she'll pound at your door even though it's half an hour before you intend to wake up and go YOU'RE STILL NOT AWAKE YET? with the most annoying attitude in the world. as if it's a sin that i wana sleep. She'll start talking at you, not letting you get a bit of shut eye. and she'll expect you to remember everything she says even though you're barely conscious. why? becuase according to HER, I CANT SLEEP. I'M NOT ALLOWED TO -__- it doesn't stop there. she'll tell you all the things she needs you to do, and expect you to reply as if you are fully awake and ready to play tennis or something. and if you still don't wake up, she'll try to curl up in your coccoon and invade your space until you do. ughhhh!! yea, she's never NICE when she wakes you up. my dad: he's not as bad as my mother but even then, he's still hella annoying to wake up to. He comes in with questions... he ALWAYS wakes you up with a question, that he demands to be answered as if i'm a 6 year old child with ADHD. I LIKE MY SLEEP, FYI. He'll keep asking you questions that don't need to be answered more than 3 times... but he'll keep asking the same question in various forms. then he'll ask you if you want to eat. i'm tired and i like my bed and you've interrupted this wonderful relationship i have with my bed... i don't want to eat. i want to SLEEP. -__-. and worst of all.... BOTH my parents like to wake up super early for some strange reason. during school times, saturday's the only day i get to sleep in, and get my rest. my parents insist on waking me up at friggin 8:30 in the morning for no reason. it's not like they are taking me out for breakfast or anything. they just want to wake me up. like... are you kidding me? Like i said earlier, great people... but hella annoying to wake up to. sigh. no wonder why i'm always grumpy in the morning.
;;quick edit: it's 6:39AM and i just got revenge on my mom: "you're STILL not awake yet?" :D i win!
